for you only, ZAKIRAH SHAHROM.

Dear Zakirah,

I think I don't have to tell you how much I miss you because I know you already knew that. And I know you have the same tones of missing me too. Each single day, it grows until I cannot control my heart. I lose with myself. I cry for you.

The day when you asked to be my friend was the luckiest day in my life. Since then you had been a close friend of mine. We shared secrets, problems and we relied on each other for all things. I recognised your face when you were depressed for you only have one expression meant for stress. Other than that, you just smiled at anybody, anywhere and anytime.

Somehow I had been so selfish. I ignored you just to spend time with somebody else. I didn't listen to your words when I text him. If I could turn the time, I want to spend all my time with you. I am truly sorry for my selfishness. And I deserve any punishment for my ignorance towards my own bestfriend. You were there besides me through thick and thin but yet, I wasn't always there for you.

I remembered when we were caught red - handed in my room - where we didn't go to the assembly. I was the mastermind and you were just following. And when we went to somewhere which we were the first girls in our batch who went there. We all excited. Nearly SPM when we remembered back all those times, we laughed for how silly we were that time. I really miss that moment.

You know that I was so sad to see you crying. You cried and hugged me when you got your spm result. My tears almost fell down but I knew, I had to be strong to give you strength. And I regretted, why I kept helping somebody else during spm but not you? Again, I am so sorry.

Tomorrow, you will enter matrik perlis which I am surely will not visiting you there. But still, I don't want you to forget me. I want you to keep all the memories we were together in your imaginative and creative mind. I hope you will be what you want to be one day. I will be missing you always. Till we meet again.

With lots of loves,
Fatin.